reason enough.

is this why?

is this why i have loved and then lost?

is this why i have faced that wretched heartache?

is this why i have tasted pain so real, so raw?

is this why it happened the way that it did, step by step, tear by tear?

is this why i now stepped back into the light?

to dance in the sun

and to prepare my heart for more love, to open the floodgates

and enter this time, ever more sharpened?

more importantly,

ever more softened?

if this is the only reason for why You brought me here

the way You did

so that i might hold my baby brother,

Your most precious gift to me, cherished above all else

as he rocks, gasping for air, hardly breathing

afraid to face the stab of tomorrow

without her

if this is the only reason

that i might be the only one he opens the door for

the only one he lets in

the only person who sees him cry tonight

the only one who understands every reason behind every irrational curse

and insecurity

if this is the only reason

then i will hold him through the night

until he can breathe again, on his own

and i will know how to comfort

i will know exactly what to say,

and i will thank You for all of it

knowing that this reason alone, is enough for me.