i am a blonde flame.

the true living project. even after years of stalking her, this video still remains my greatest muse and inspiration. i have referred back to it repeatedly. to live this richly and without hesitation and to awaken ourselves to our deepest senses. to drink things in. to love and forgive and then live with sweet abandon.

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I want to walk through this doorway

I want to open my mind

I want to pledge my allegiance to all i can find

I want a car that will crash through the barrier

To a road no one knows

I want to feel less control,
want to bend and I want to land far from home.

The revolution of the earth around the sun
is the perfect lesson of how it should be.
So if i cannot learn
to journey and return,
to never rest till I've seen all I can see...

I want to learn a completely new language,
one I don't understand.
I want to help someone lost, someone helpless,
with the strength of my hand.
I want to come to the base of a statue built
before they counted the years,
and there i'll fall with my face in my hands and cry
and feel their hope in my tears.

Train rides and pastures colliding...
colors and customs i've never seen...
I know I, yes I know I,
I know I will stumble
but time is precious my friend.

Those who journey can easily understand,
the more they see the more they'll learn,
the more that they will be.
So this I swear to you, and this I swear to me,
I'll never rest till I've seen all I can see.
No, I'll never rest till I've seen all i can see.

I want to know where the stength of a person lies,
in their past or their future.
Is it in the way that they hurt or they love themselves
or is it all an illusion?
I want to crawl from this skin that i'm painted in...
Body, please let it give.
I want to find the creator of all good things
and ask what it means to live

brendan james- all i can see

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We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls
We come to every new morning
With possibilities only we can hold, that only we can hold

Redemption comes in strange place, small spaces
Calling out the best of who we are

And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside

It comes in small inspirations
It brings redemption to life and work
To our lives and our work

It comes in loving community
It comes in helping a soul find it's worth

This is grace, an invitation to be beautiful
This is grace, an invitation

And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside

sara groves- add to the beauty

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these two songs have been a calling to me lately. do you ever hear songs one day but then rediscover them at a later time in life and realize that they can break down walls in your life? this is the way music speaks to me so often. i cling to it as much as i cling to my visual art and art making. and these passions of mine they keep me strong, they give my fingers strength to cling desperately to the robe of the one who has offered me salvation. He has given me a desire for beauty and aesthetic in these forms that i may soften down and be held by his amazing hands. held in hands that let me steady myself. held in hands that won't ask me to be what i am not but let me exist, as i am.

and what am i? a blonde flame, wrapped in a tiny body on this earth that will come to His arms like the safest harbor, for mending.