little indian.

you know those moments when it's all you can do to try to escape the clarity of your "calling?" because it truly is all around you, filtering into every inch of you. you have a talk with someone and you speak to them about your "plans" and your ideas for the future and it all comes out so clearly and you realize that most things in your life are aligned and you didn't even know it. yes, i am writing in runons in this moment because i feel so overwhelmed, so overflowing, with excitement and intense passion today. this sunday. art therapy-whatever that may mean, i am slowly discovering all that i can about it- is where my heart lies. and art therapy comes in so many different forms. i don't envision myself sitting in a big leather chair in a silent room, listening to people tell me their stories and encouraging them to "create something." i envision a far more interactive "something." helping others with art, inspiring others, living the creative life, every day. all day. i am currently obsessed with the idea of moving to the pacific northwest after i leave the eastern shore this spring. what would that look like? i want to be over there. and why not new york? or the east coast? because i think of freedom and others who are open to ideas. i dream of mountains and art walks and flea markets and the fish market in seattle. i am breathing with short breaths right now, heart racing, soaking up inspirations from all angles not nearly fast enough, apparently. there is so much to soak in, so much to discover, research, observe, gather. i want to say yes to it all. i have felt so hindered by my fears. fears that i will be shot down. fears that others will say no. fear that turns into laziness and putting off until tomorrow what i can put my fingers on today. i just want to do it! do you ever get that feeling. the feeling like you just can't type fast enough or that your feet want to just run, keys in hand, jump in your car and drive to the places you dream of most? making the seemingly impossible possible. you are being spoken to. you are being assured of your gifts and passions and you just can't help but say yes to them.

I'll turn myself into the grass
And I'll grow
Take this space above my head
And live a little, little.

Gonna wear my feathered headdress
Like an Indian chief.
Gonna stretch out both my arms
I'm gonna test the temperature.

Follow the taste of it.
Jump in.
Swallow it whole.
Jump in.